Friday, February 24, 2012


I have been inspired to write the last few days on this topic however, I have been collecting my own thoughts and trying to find time to write. While I have been collecting my thoughts I have found some pictures to help go along with this post and it maybe kind of lengthy. To help shorten the posts I will post the pics on the pics page.  There have been a few events which have triggered the inspiration on the topic of life but it isn't just life but life lessons. Two weeks ago I had counseling and I was given a key. Its not a key to open a door in the physical realm but a key to unlock a world with in my soul. The key was a quote "Once we accept things for what they are. "it is what it is" then change will occur".  I was given a week to think on what it meant and how change can occur once we accept things for what they are. Long story short and more explanation on this will be later. I came up with it but I danced around it and I feel I came up with the answer in essence. Then Wednesday a friend of mine's daughter was rushed to the hospital because she tried to attempt suicide. There has also been another friend who her son's friend committed suicide. There has been many young people recently attempting suicide and those who have succeeded. It breaks my heart to hear such news. There are people who deal with mental illness everyday and when someone hears this news they think they can force themselves to be better. They may say that if they just do this and do that then things will be better. What they don't realize is what they are saying is lies and in a way its their way of dealing with the news and denying that mental illness exists. I deal with bi polar depression everyday. I have been dealing with depression since I was 13. At such a young age I not only tried to attempt suicide by playing chicken when walking to the library but I took to food for comfort. My mom tried to get me help but the doc that I was seeing at the time I couldn't openly talk about what I was dealing with. In the summer of 2009 I started to cut myself and even writing poetry helped some but cutting for me was a thrill. I am not proud that I started to cut but it started the road to where I needed help. My current ex who I tried to date once again in the fall of that year didn't help to my feelings or my illness. Currently I am dealing better with my bi polar depression not only because I am on meds but I have lived the quote above without realizing it until now. Many of us have lived this quote without realizing it. In 2010 I started to see a counselor and saw a doc who was just treating me for depression at the time. The reason I started seeing a counselor was because I finally said "Enough is enough. Life sucks and I am tired of it". I accepted things for what they were and then change started to occur for me. In less than a year I made progress in all areas of my life because I was able to see the whole picture and not just one view of life. While seeing the whole view of  things in my life that sucked I was able to see options that were available. I am not the only one who deals with depression in my family either. My mom deals with depression and seasonal depression and my sister deals with it. They have also attempted suicide and have cut themselves as well. There are many out there who deal with the same issue and are afraid to get help. I love how one friend put it in her blog that depression is a living person. I have to agree with her depression is not just a thing to deal with its a living thing inside of us. It will consume us not just in our thoughts but it casts this dark gloom around us and affects everyone around us that we love and we come into contact with. Once we accept the fact that our life sucks and we accept it for what it is and not just depression but in every aspect of our lives then we can allow change to occur in our lives. I thought about posting not only the following quotes and 45 life lessons and explaining them and giving my opinions on them but I will let you interpret them for yourself. I for one have found this inspiring and life changing and hope that someone will find it helpful.  

"1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short – enjoy it.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will. 

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye But don't worry; God never blinks.

16.. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful.  Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to be happy.  But it’s all up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive but don’t forget.  

29. What other people think of you is none of your business. 

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have not what you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

"Hey YOU, yes you. Stop being unhappy with yourself, you are perfect. Stop wishing you were someone else or that someone liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, your face, your personality, your quirks, Love them. without those things you wouldn't be you. Be confident with who you are. Smile, it'll draw people in. If anyone hates you because you're happy with yourself forget them.. Your happiness doesn't depend on others. Be happy because you love who you are, Love your flaws, Love your imperfections, because they make you and "You" are pretty amazing." 

''They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.'' (Andy Warhol)

Friday, February 17, 2012

Better Late Than Never...

 Well the saying goes "Its better late than never." often times the saying is true. I today I checked my messages on another social networking site that I joined for the LGBT community. I hardly get on it for the simple fact its not as good as fuckbookasstwat. Yea fuckbook has its issues but all my friends are there and what friends I make on this other profile are younger than I am and are in relationships and I really don't have much in common with them. Anywho I get updates when I get messages or friend requests and this message I received was for a group. The message was for VD which was 3 days ago but the message inspired me to write today. This young person wrote "i wish you all an intense massive amount of LOVE ..

people often forget that its not about celebrating the LOVE of YOU and a special someone ..

BUT ...

about celebrating that YOU have been blessed by having anyone on earth LOVE you ..

people often get lost in the fact that it's a cheesy lover's holiday ..

LOVE is what happens to YOU when one celebrates that YOU are alive ..

i hope YOU all have someone in your lives ... whether that be someone that is a friend, relative, partner ... that conveys how truly IMPORTANT you all are ..

and for that ... YOU are beauty-FULL". This spoke great amount of volume to me and to think that someone at such a young age can show you the true meaning of the holidays. The media, society, Hallmark, corporate business, and the like turn the holidays in to something that we dread because they portray it as something as it shouldn't be. They destroy the true meaning of holidays in every way they can so they can make money. I find that it should be a crime to do such a thing. There is also a controversy for those who haven't heard that Whitney Houston passed away before the Grammy's which I will touch on later. Valentines Day for many who are single is a very depressing day because they feel that like my young friend pointed out that its portrayed as a "lovers" day. When in fact it should be a day to truly reflect and count how many people that truly LOVE us. I could count a lot of people from my friends list on fuckbook who show me everyday that I am loved. My family whether they be blood related or the family that has been developed in the small group that our queen has created, the friends that I have made in the other groups that I have joined. Regardless of who they are they show me that I AM LOVED! They are there for support, advice, and just to put a smile on my face. Love isn't about who is in your life but its who shows you that they are happy to see you alive and are there for you to show you that you matter. That is the true meaning of Valentines Day! :)


I think that is also a problem of why there are so many kids and people who decide to end their life early because no one is there to show them the support and that they matter. I'm not just talking about the LGBT community suicide happens to most of the kids who are bullied and its not just cause they are gay either. Again the media most of the time will focus on a minority to make it bigger than what it is. Which brings me to Whitney Houston the full story about her death isn't completely out of what caused her death but she was found in a hotel room half in the bathtub and half out. Most celebs have an addiction to drugs and alcohol the media slanders them and brings them down because of it. There are many who are upset that she has passed away and there are some that say she did it to herself and deserved it for her addiction. I have seen many people on fuckbook who are upset because they are televising her funeral but the men and women who fight for our country are left out and no one truly mourns their death and the media leaves them out. I watched "The Talk" yesterday and they were talking about Whitney's death and the media says that she drowned in her tub cause she was found in the tub. Well the guy I can't remember where he is from I think it was "Entertainment" show or something like that she was found half inside and half out. They also talked about her addiction and her death whether the cause is because of her addiction or not is no different than any other celeb out there. The mentioned several celebs and some other people that would be more controversial than Whitney's death. All celebs have made some great contributions to our nation and before Whitney died she had some great plans and was excited about a project she was going to be doing so why would she end her life? I agree that if we are going to make such a big deal out of a celebs death then our men and women who freely give their lives to protect us and fight for our freedom need to have the same respect shown and make a big deal out of their death as we do for our troops. People are also having a fit that the state of NJ is wanting to fly the flags at half mast and I don't see a problem with it that it is the governors decision but again if its done for celebs then it should be done for our troops too. Everyone has their opinions and everyone has a right to their own feelings. I personally can see both sides and have to agree with them. I will remember her for the music she left and not how she lead her personal life. I wasn't expecting this to be a long post but looks like I really did get inspired :)
Forever will her music live on!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Final Project

Here is my final project that I have spent 10 weeks on at least the essay part and I did a powerpoint and waiting on the grade now. 
Activism Does Work
          Does activism work? For some that question is debatable. It is debatable because some do not have all the facts of what activism is and what it entails. Activism is simply standing up for ones values, beliefs, and taking action. Activism plays a big part in America today yet many do not know what it is or how it works. Everyone is included when it comes to activism and yet some do not even realize this. There are different forms of activism from simply voting when something you are either for or against is on the ballot, to going as far as making activism as ones career. However, when most hear the word activism they probably think of rude people pushing petitions in their faces or even think of groups of people picketing outside of offices of senators and other government officials. Even though protesting and petitions are forms of activism, there is a method to making activism work.  All forms of activism are effective in their own way just as the definition of activism changes with each individual. Therefore, when someone asks “what is activism?” the response may vary but the essence of the answer should still be the same. Activism is standing firm on ones values, beliefs and taking action. The action taken will differ with each person and what they can contribute towards their cause.
           The work involved in being an activist involves making petitions, raising money, and campaigning. Being an activist is not hard work and anyone can do it. To become an activist you would have to find first a cause that you feel very passionate about and learn everything you can about your cause, express yourself, and recruit others who also share your views. There is almost a cause for everything like women’s rights, gay rights, animal rights, and even politics. Another way you can help is by sharing your views and gain support. Explore sites like or to help give you ideas and tips on creating online petitions. You use petitions to gain support for a cause and let the government or business know that there are others who feel the same about the issue and change needs to happen. Campaigning for a cause is all about getting the word out there and letting people know whether they are for it or against it that there are others out there who feel the same way you do about your cause. Getting the word out there by using means of news, social media networks, creating clubs at school, or connecting with teachers, use your connections, whatever it might be (, n.d.).  Whatever the process might be in activism each individual can support their cause with what they can do.
               Most causes need to raise money to help support them because they are a non-profit organization. When searching for reliable organizations to follow and help support for your cause, it is helpful to research where the money goes. A good example of a cause that raises money and awareness is Susan G. Komen for the Cure the money raised and donated to that cause helps to fund research and probably the biggest part for any cause the money used to help educate others (Susan G. Komen, n.d.). In addition, the money raised and donated to a cause or organization spent on lobbyists, which is also a form of activism. Organizations first educate lobbyists on what their cause is all about and why they want them to support their cause. Once an organization has educated their selected lobbyist the lobbyists then takes up the cause and is the advocate to the government officials.  Lobbyists form relationships with legislator and other government officials and gain the trust in order to effectively advocate the issues the organization has brought to their attention. Those issues that people have brought to the lobbyist turn around and present the issues to the government in a way to convince them that the issues will affect people’s lives in those districts (Mapes, 2011). Mapes & Mapes, Inc. are experts in lobbying and government relations. They have resources that help people who want to know more about what lobbyists do or for those who would like to become a lobbyist.
             All causes can be important and need support and one cause is neither greater nor lesser than the other is because it depends on the person who is fighting for the cause. The attention a cause receives depends on how passionate and strongly you feel about the cause. In addition, terminology can be confusing when fighting for a cause and depends on which side you are supporting; one example of this is pro-choice/pro-abortion and pro-life/anti-abortion. Terminology can be confusing and it is best to research what the terms mean when supporting a cause. For example, human rights and civil rights can be confusing and there is some miss guided information or misconceptions about these two groups. When talking about human rights some may think of just one type of group and the same goes for civil rights. Many are not fully aware of what human and civil rights are. Everyone is included when it comes to fighting for human rights but the outcome is not always the way they imagine it to be.  Activists fighting for human rights seek out groups of people who are seeking the same rights as everyone else and who should be entitled to those same rights. When talking about same rights we mean that everyone is entitled to marriage, to having kids, to be able to work, and to live their lives without being discriminated, tortured, or killed because they may be different. Human rights have been defined as “basic moral guarantees that people in all countries and cultures allegedly have simply because they are people. Calling these guarantees “rights” suggests that they attach to particular individuals who can invoke them, that they are of high priority, and that compliance with them is mandatory rather than discretionary. Human rights are frequently held to be universal in the sense that all people have and should enjoy them, and to be independent in the sense that they exist and are available as standards of justification and criticism whether or not they are recognized and implemented by the legal system or officials of a country (Fagan, 2003) ” . This means that human rights are basic moral rights of certain individuals or groups who feel that their rights and sense of independence is being taken away from them on a daily bases. Those individuals have considered them a high priority and demand respect to be given. Everyone should be able to enjoy living a life they have dreamed of, to be married, and to have kids of his or her own. What one group has it should be universal for all to enjoy and give a sense of independence whether it is recognized and upheld by the federal government or state or not. 
                Civil Rights are the same thing as human rights but on a legal level. Civil rights are enforced and upheld by the government in which when those rights or privileges are withheld there is consequences to the individual who has taken away those rights. Examples of civil rights that are most common is freedom of speech, right to vote, freedom of the press, and assembly, and equality in public places. When civil rights are taken away it is called discrimination that occurs when those rights are denied or interfered with because of race, sex, age, religion, sexual orientation, and such (Cornell University, 2010). Civil rights is the next step from human rights. Once those who support human rights make others aware of the groups and their rights, those rights presented to legislators to taken up on a legal level and turned in to law to protect those from discrimination. One example I would like to stick with to better explain is gay rights. Awhile back New York legalized same sex marriage. Some would argue that it would not have been possible if it were not for the help of petitions, raising money, and campaigning for the legalization of same sex marriage. Therefore, same sex marriage started as human rights making others aware of the issue. While making others aware of the issue they raised money and sent out petitions. Lobbyists and others were probably educated with the money raised while campaigning. After the initial process, they continued it to push for it to become a civil rights matter to protect people in that group from discrimination.  
               The importance of activism and fighting for civil rights to succeed is to help protect everyone from discrimination and persecution. Discrimination is the act of favoring for or against an individual or group. It can affect several areas of a person’s life. It includes but is not limited to education, voting, employment, and housing. Some forms of discrimination include but is not limited to age, sexual orientation, race, and religion. Anti-discrimination laws have originated at two different levels, through Federal legislation or federal court decisions. Here are two examples of which federal level played a part in anti-discrimination laws. The federal legislation created the Civil Rights Act of 1964 and the federal court that would be the U.S. Supreme Court decided in the case Brown v. Board of Education (Findlaw, n.d.). President Lyndon Johnson signed the Civil Rights Act of 1964, which protects people from discrimination, which includes voting rights, education, and housing.  It was the Civil Rights Act of 1964 that paved the way for Congress to pass the Voting Rights Act of 1965, the Americans With Disabilities Act of 1990, and a several other key laws. Before the Civil Rights Act of 1964, the Supreme Court decided in the case Brown v. Board of Education in 1954. The court ruled that public schools that racially segregated students were unconstitutional. In doing so, it sparked a wide civil rights movement that pushed toward equal rights and desegregation (Eggleston, 2009).  The other reason why it is important that activism and fighting for civil rights to succeed is persecution, persecution may not be happening out in the open or even in America but it does happen.
Persecution is different from discrimination and confusion between the two can happen. Persecution is the act that includes but is not limited to harassing, oppressing, or driving away someone for the same reasons as discrimination occurs against people. Some countries will murder, imprison, or drive away people because they believe differently or they have different color of skin. By the definition of persecution, bullying which is a form of harassment could be persecution. Because of persecution and discrimination activism and fighting for human and civil rights protects everyone involved from being wrongfully treated. The end results for fighting for human and civil rights and any good cause by activism allows everyone to be equally treated. Treated equally not only in the eyes of the law but allows society to accept everyone for who they are regardless of what they believe. If laws for civil rights are passed then everyone would be accepted and treated equally in society, many hope that it would bring peace to everyone.
I am sure that everyone would be happy to bring about peace for everyone and to end discrimination and persecution however, just like politics there are those who become activists and organizations in the name of a cause are created are not always the way that they seem. They may be for a good cause and something we support but their intentions are not clear or they take the cause to the extreme just like in politics. An example of this is the organization of PETA, which most people have probably heard of. PETA stands for People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, going to their website their front view shows good intentions. Their mission is to focus on four areas in which they feel that animals suffer: factory farms, clothing trade, laboratories, and in entertainment industry. However, they also focus on other issues involving animals as well (PETA, n.d.).  The downfall to PETA is they take their mission to the extreme and in ways that is controversial. Activist cash (n.d) is a site that the Center for Consumer Freedom created and dedicated their work to inform taxpayers of where their money goes. They believe that taxpayers deservers to know where their money that is donated to non-profit organizations. They have gathered their information from the IRS and update their database every month.  According to Activist cash (n.d.) they have reported that in 2004 alone PETA received almost $29 million in donations. What donors are not aware of that during the past ten years PETA has spent more money on criminals and legal defense than it had on shelters, spay-neuter programs, and actually helping animals. The list of objectionable things that PETA has done to list in detail is far too numerous that the site has listed the “top ten” from over the last several years.  An example like PETA shows that research on a cause is helpful. You need to fully know what the cause is about, what they spend their money on, and if they are actually doing what they promise to do.  However, each person has their own views on an issue just as each person has different political views. Some people have political views that are extreme on either side of the spectrum and there are those who are in the middle.
It helps being educated in eight areas that we just covered. Those areas that we covered are; what activism is, the process that is involved in activism, and are the organizations using the money properly for their cause. Fully knowing the definitions of the terms human rights, civil rights, discrimination, and persecution may open your eyes of what others go through in life. Knowing why it is important for a cause to succeed is not only picturing how life will be different for those involved but also it should be to make the world a better place. It all ties in together. Everyone is involved when it comes to activism and fighting for causes. The difference now is taking this information and using it to benefit others and it will make you feel better about yourself. Activism is simply spreading the word and we are all able to do that. We are standing for our beliefs, our values, and are taking action. The next time you see someone with petitions do not blow them off take time to listen and ask questions about the cause. Asking questions may seem like a silly idea but there is never any harm in it and it gives us more knowledge on a subject. If you are not sure about signing then after questioning them, try to see if you could come back later. Before you go back see if you could find more info on the cause online and see if there is a national group behind them or if it is local group you want to make sure the cause is reliable. Once you have done that then only you can decide if it is a worthy cause and if you are going to take action. We can finally end that if it was not for people who care about making the world a brighter and better place for everyone change would probably not happen and the world would not evolve as it has today. The answer to whether or not if activism really does work the answer is yes; yes, it does work every little amount of action helps. Whether that action is signing petitions, spreading the word about a cause, donating money, or being more involved and making it a career in some way. It is like pennies that some people collect in a jar that is untouched it keeps growing and growing. Eventually change will happen and causes will have victories.  

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Blah Hump Day

Well I am finally getting to blog again today. I found two pics that has inspired today's blog. I have posted them on the random pics page. First pic is about Facebook I have had my browser open since I have been up. I skipped my daily ritual of getting on my wall and seeing what I missed since I went to bed, checking my horoscope and my fortune cookie just so I could finish up my final project for College Comp 2. Now that I am free to check my facebook my news feeds aren't showing up properly, items are missing, and all in all Facebook is now and until I feel they have improved is FUCKBOOKASSTWAT. Now that I have gotten that out of my system on to lighter things. Today is HUMP DAY!!!!! at least what is left of it. Today starts week 10 of my classes which means I don't really have school so I get two weeks off for a break before having to start again. So the next pic that inspired this post that was shared from a wonderful friend of mine. I get to sit back for two weeks not have a care in the world and if I had the beer I would be having beer. However, I do have access to some liquor Captain Morgan Long Island Iced Tea, vodka (nothing to mix it with except tea), and some strawberry wine. OOOOO speaking about strawberry wine  I think I might check out YouTube or see if I have the song in my archives "Strawberry Wine". So that is pretty much going on in my world I have bunch of emails and organizations I need to go through and I have a dr. appointment tomorrow which means I won't be up too late. But before I leave I will find another pic that fits my mood. 
Since I have my doctors appointment tomorrow I think this fits well  :) 

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentines Day

Well today is the wonderful Hallmark day called Valentines Day. Things have been going pretty well here lately for me. I am almost done with this term tomorrow starts the last week but I am still working on my finals project. This post will be short I just wanted to update and say that not only are things going well with me and been busy with school. Today I have joined Pinterest and I have made some changes to my blog. I have added Random Pics which I am hoping that will help me not only visit my blog daily but the pics will help inspire me to write. Also the random pics may just be something I find interesting and be my blog post. Also the questions page is for anyone who asks questions and I will post them there. Questions would be posted anonymously unless stated as such. So far a big achievement I haven't bitten my nails for about a week and a half but I am still smoking. I don't think i will be quitting anytime soon cause well its my pleasure in life. I might post my essay that I have worked on for the past two weeks in school.